*** him! The price of a boy who is priceless to me...

Damn (not really.. but its the only word that seems to fit) him! *** Him for knowing how to get to me. *** him for knowing me better than anyone else on this planet. and *** me for still carring! I thought I gave him a piece of me and it was gone... and I was sad to have lost that part of me.. but I had moved on,and learned to live without it.. I had even developed a new patch to fillthat space.. BUT it turns out he didnt take a piece of me at all, he just became part of me instead.... A fate far worse. He'll be with me forever as someting I can never have, but can never let go of either. *** him for this! *** him for the self doubt that he has given me, and for the fact that he hung all of my flaws over my head. *** him for making me concious of my actions and the fact that I now edit what I say and do. *** him him for making me fear trusting anohter person like I did him, and *** him for telling me I wasnt perfect and making that matter to me. ** him for not being there when I needed him the most and *** him for blameing that on me, *** him for always pushing me away and ripping me appart and then questioning why I was so cautious. *** me for blaming all of this on him.