This is my 2nd time typing this profile. That says it all. I am a girl who struggles with everything, computers included. I tend to persevier,in my own little way tho. I am weird by definition. I like that. I like being called that, but I don't like knowing it, or thinking about it. I find it makes me try to be myself, and that is not fun. I am 24 which is a hard thing for me to admit, as it scares the crap out of me. I tell peole this as a confession, they take it as an insecurrity. I am at a transition period. I thought last year was a transition, but I must have gotten the definition wrong. Last year I was still very secure in everything I did. I was a student, lived at home, had a fun summer job and no real concerns, except keeing my friends happy and getting good marks. This year is much different. It is scarry, and I often feel as if my life is being taken from me, when in reality I'm sure it's setting things up so I can take steps forward. Right now I prefer baby steps. Even these scare me. I am scared of the phone *especially* with people who I know (there are only 2 exceptions to this rule) other than that Im an "in person" kinda girl. Well in person or msn.
Went to my 2nd Bonfire night with P, my 2nd special guy friend with whom I have had some great moments and conversations. I truly wish that I could appriciate and live every moment as fully and without fear as he does.
posted by muchison @ 8:58 PM
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