You find your moments. Experiences are a constantly available product. I use the term product on purpose. Experiences are a creation. You make them, or you avoide them. I am inconsistant and random in my actions these days, but, one constant has been my desire for experience. I am open to anything, and will try everything. In a place that has so much to offer, few people actually create, what they have the potential to experience. I recently was presented with the option to withdraw from my irratic life filled with random adventures in return for a secure, stable and reliable relationship. I chose to stay on course. I am not sure if I made the decision on terms that were valid, but, the decision was the right one. To hell with the reasons for my decision.

1:16. Not in the afternoon. A "good luck" banner hangs to my left. Luck has nothing to do with anything. Ok, most things. Sure, some things are lucky, like winning the lottery, or having the perfect weather on your wedding day. You cannot rely on luck, however. It is pointless. What you want never happens, and what you don't expect, always does. Let your guard down for two seconds, and the world is completley different. Keep your guard up, and life becomes boaring. Life ends up getting shut out, when one becomes overly protective and conservative. Where then, is the balance? I embrace so much activity, and yet seem to be scared of productivity. I am one of the most active people I know, and yet, also one of the least progressive. Sure, I have all of my plans made, and all of the required allowances made to provide for a successful future. I however, avoide under all circumstances taking this step. I think I'm scared to take the step alone. I feel like Im in a room filled with people, and alone in the same instance.